I’ve Finally Hit ROCK BOTTOM *** $5 Million In Debt***

The last several days have been the hardest days of my life. I have become a person I never wanted to become. 

I am an Alcoholic. I'm a Drug Addict. I have a gambling problem. I have a spending problem. I have a problem with authority. I'm not willing to listen to other people. I have betrayed people's trust that were close to me. I have taken advantage of people. I have hurt people. 

I have been living a fake life. I am a fraud. I owe a lot of people a lot of money. I got a little taste of success and let it go to my head. I let my demons consume me. I threw away everything I built when I was sober. 

The last 6 months I haven't been happy. I've pretended to be, while secretly battling this constant need to show a perfect face. This need to feel good about myself and make others think I'm successful. I've made a lot of bad decisions and I've done a lot of stuff I'm not proud of. 

I can't change what I've done but I don't want to live the way I've been any longer.

I'm Sorry