Why Did We Break Up ? The Truth w OnlyJayus – #Shorts

I am aware of my faults and the part i played in the end of our relationship, but n o b o d y deserves to be CHEATED on. I am talking about this publicly bc i can not stand to read another comment asking or assuming what happened between us. I also feel like with the amount of times our relationship was shared with others, sharing how the relationship ended is fair game. I do not wver want to talk about this again bc everytime i think about it its like pickinng at a scab and refusing to let it heal. and i need to start actually healing from this. I have not handled feeling “my person’s” absence with the same intensity that i felt their love ~well~ AT ALL and i have a lot of regrets and think about the what ifs way too much. Ive felt like ive lost my sanity a thousand times over.  im at a place where i dont feel like im ever going to be okay. im hope im wrong. But it does feel better knowing that im acknowledging what happened rather than holding it in to protect someone that didnt bother to protect me. Mattie is free to give their own take on the situation is they feel the need to but knowing them i do not think that they ever will. More power to them honestly. Its very conflicting hating a person im still in love with and im sorry to anyone else experiencing something like this. If theres any lesson in this its just to be honest with people bc the damage caused from lying is not worth it. And to the girl that nuked my relationship for the sake of her own ego, i hope someone breaks you the way you broke us. I wish i could tell yall who she is bc you would forsure know her, but shes curently sueing me for “defamation” (lol) bc i told her mom and our mutual friends what she did. Oh well. Thanks for listening guys